i fail again, then i win

at this point it's completely pathetic, but you gotta start somewhere.

two nights ago, after begging myself to be a good boy and not call for phone secks, i did. i failed.

last night, i was such a good boy. i winned. i came home after a long day at work, lay in bed depressed until i started sobbing, then got up and got on with my evening. tlin called -- i telepathically commanded her to, and she did. so that was good. i just gotta remember to treat her like the great friend that she is.

no phone secks, drugs, or rock and roll. (just a little ghostface to help me wash my pile of dishes.)

hopefully more boringness tonite.