Wherein i gets serious for a half-sec

i was just texting with kevin, and trying to encapsulating what i was going thru in a coupole lines without depressing him or alarming him or sounding self-pitying. basicaly, what i ended up saying is something i truly feel - at least i finally know what it's like to give a shit abouut a girl. to feel really, really awful when she's gone. when has that happened before? NEVER. so this is good. I CAN FEEL PASSIONATE ABOUT SOMEBODY. it is a new thing. i know how it works now, and i know what to avoid. i.e., passionless relationships. i KNOW SOMETHING IMPORTANT AND NEW NOW. thank you kirsten, hoenstly, honestly, without irony, from the bottom of my heart.